The rose bushel

I must harden my heart
burn down the rose bushel of love
vanquish her from my mind
for I am a slave to her even within my thoughts
alas no more these hands will break the rose vines down and cast them into a dark abyss
I will free my heart from her chains that bind me down
For is it better to love and not have it reciprocated or to love blindly
I shall stand fast within my bitterness and destroy this love
for nothing good shall come of it
just pain just sorrow
for i shall burn down this bushel of love

Is...

Is insanity and instablity a growing condition within my mind...
"The cigarette i couldnt smoke"

This Cell..

This cell that I call my mind...
Its bars are thick and the walls are high
The darkness is vast and unchanging
I sit and cry for a glimspe of the light on high
but darkness is the only thing which i bide
as time goes along its path
sorrow grows forth from shadows
like a black harvest of the plague
thoughts of you are like the carion crow that picks at the remains of those who passed long ago
thoughts if cause sorrow to swell up within my soul which i try to pass away but to no avail you stand within my mind taunting teasing and decieving
why do i care why do i try when it is to no avial
i just dwell in this cell...

Our Prayers...

I walk this valley of death and
fear the arrow that flies by day
and the pestilence that stalks the night
And I fear the plague that destroys at midday
Thousands fall at my side and tens of thousand at my right
all believing that god was on there side..
I have fallen dashed my body against the crimson stones
I look up broken and maimed and ask on high my god my god why you have you forsaken me..
as we all lay broken and maimed a few continue to pray...
but these prayers they go unheard, unanswered....

Oh my....

Confusion enters my mind in vast amounts....the one girl who i like quite a bit but doesnt want a relationship or im not to sure what she wants but she fascinates me...another girl whom i know wants a relationship and i know likes but i havent acted on this physically...its just a matter of what do i do now for the dilema is present i am surely smitten for the one girl but maybe i should reevaluate my emotions and redirect them to where my feelings will be reciprocated...im not to sure what to do...i figure ill just play it out as it comes who knows oh well oh well......

"A sunday smile we wore it for awhile"

Where do I stand...

Where do I stand, where do I stand
The earth it spins around
but i do not move I stand still as the revolutions of time whirl on by,
The days spin by the sorrow soars on high
I know not where I go, I know not where im from,
or of days yet to come...

The consant thought...

The constant thought of you dwells within my mind ever present if even it is just passively but it doesnt stay that way...i find myself thourout the day thinking if you wondering if you are thinking about me...the notes of a song the chirping of birds all these little things trigger you to come once again like a deluge into my mind, which i must say i do enjoy for it is like sipping on fine wine, when i think of days gone by but the bitter sweetness of it all is the sweet is that you dwell in my mind and the memories are lovely but the bitterness is how i long for you, your soft touch upon my face, the warmness of our bodies laying next to eachother in the chill of the night....