Kiss me girly, or dont thats up to you, but dont think you have me pegged not just quite yet, you assume all I want is to fuck, your certainly wrong on this matter, come one, I knew nothing of that nature was happening the first time we hung out, but we still kept hanging out, why because I enjoy being around you, I love the way you smell, the way you act, how smile, the way you talk, just everything, if I was just looking to fuck why would I have spent so much time with you? There is plenty of mediocre girls out there that just want fuck, you are certainly not mediocre. So I am sorry if you feel that way not much I can do about it, you know? And Im off tommorow for quite awhile, you know you confuse me, you know I have no idea how act around you, you turn my thoughts into whirling winds of color. So once again I apologize if you got the immpression wrongly, and I want to kiss you because I want to feel that much closer to you, that much more apart of you.

I think I maybe going through alcohol withdrawal at the moment its no fun not one bit

You say you miss me, but im not good enough to be your only one you chose another, so why should I care my love? Your lonely thats all and Im convient of course I tend to say nice to you, and all that, but no more you chose and it wasnt me! so what do you wish from me now, im gone from you, you cant always get what you want sorry love, no longer will I be a back burner or convient when you miss your real lover, Im not good enough for you which is fine thats no news to me, hope you do dandy dont think ill be hanging on your next move

Silly silly fool am I

Ive composed thousands of ways to tell you that I am leaving, thanks for everything and a slight fuck you too, but needless to say im still being strung along because I cant say those things to you

A dream of late

I dreamt I was underwater in a old fashioned diving rig, I was clearing out a path for a ship to be able to go through a channel with others, the work was hard and the water was cold, the others next to me were not working which made me upset and I yelled, and there were odd flash backs to a medical ward with a child who had been hurt, and the doctor was burning the wound to heal it or something and I talked to this child and he kept saying "all the girls in San Francisco are whores" and I remember standing there slightly upset in a way, then there I am back underwater working one ship passed over head with a loud rumble but safely cleared the channel, then I set back to work, then another ship came but it was to late the channel wasnt deep enough there was a huge cloud of dust underwater a grinding noise me trying to run underwater away from the collapsing ship my viewing wind blurred by all the dust and the noise all around. Then I awoke

It must be hard when two boys hold your heart