The restless and wearied...

Come ye haggard soldiers, rest in the arms of fate
for you fought against the foe, that stood upon that throne
now you lay weary battered broken and maimed
and some walk now upon that great plane
for the cause must be righteous for you to fight
and to give it now your earthly life, for what lies beyond you do not know
except for toil this earth, perhaps the sleep of final rest
will clear away the weariness, the horrors that we seen and dealt as well,
for there is no god no justice in this battle and strife
you stand ever silent and stoic amongst the many who witness not what you have scene
upon this earth so green
the sorrow robbed of youth so soon, llike a blossom without its bloom
your toils greater than you alone thats why you fight that man upon the throne
which until your laid to rest amongst the great tomes,
you struggle on beneath the autumn moon.

my bible teacher...

is so ignorant i cant even fathom it......and another thought maybe we all pretend to be so deep to hide how shallow we really are

Hmmmm.....

life seems dull at the moment im not to sure what i want from it, and on that thought im not to sure what i want from my next relationship whenever that happens anyways, it between distant relationship bordering casual sex, or do i really want someone who will come and watch me play rugby on the weekend and who can sit and just smoke at starbucks for hours on end, anyways dont think this is a pressing matter anyways just a random thought a future plan for a fruitless endeavor ha...some say failing to plan is planning to fail..what if you were going to fail anyways who now how can we answer the one who plans and then fails, Looks lke your just shit out of luck....
"heres to life"

So today...

ive been intoxicated since eleven in the morning its been wonderful to say the least...the world is a brghter place when im not sober.....kinda ha....well this certain women been on my quite a bit even though i havent talked to her in ages and i know that nothing shall come of it but alas oh well..there are plenty of others well sorta im rather particular ha...oh well...god i love whiskey
the sun is setting as the day comes to a close....the clouds are so free upon that easle in the sky oh how i long to be free and float ever changing m y form break these chains that bind us and drift up into the sky...
"I see three men hanging on a sycamore"

Life

Life is full of cheap tricks and false thrills keep pulling the wool over your eyes and pray to that fascade you call god. as if he listens as if he cares, this world, this world is crumbling spiraling down towards an unknown destination where it will fall no one knows, they promises the answers that they know they cant provide theyll just pull the wool over your eyes.....

As Soberity Decreases

so currently im in the process of losing my sobriety which is wonderful indeed to say the least ha..yes so lately i find myself longing for a relationship but at the same time i feel the exact opposite its odd indeed very odd....your emotions can lead you astray wuite easily i think i am attracted to a girl at school but we shall see once get to know her better if this is still the case for i have decided that i am not going to settle for just someone to mack it with but i want someone whom is intelligent and i can converse with on a larger plane not just be macking it all the time....a hopefully someone with the religous viewpoints as me or similiar or more accepting due to the fact that differing religions can lead to tension within a realationship.....Descarte stated that we cant be certain of anything even of reality so in theory this whole world is a construct of some imagination....do you ever wonder if your someone else dream or something like that maybe thats just me i dont know.....mixing drinks sure beats the hell out of drinking straight from the bottle but oh well what can one do when times are pressing.....my ex keeps crossing my mind its rather odd very odd indeed i would call her but in this state of being thatwouldnt be prudent but i wouldnt call her in any other state of being haha thats humorous to state the least...well i am off now.....
"we only come out at night the days are much to bright"

Untitled

listen to the sirens seranade my passage across the sea of time this time it passes through troubled waters this troubled times of life......the rain it coming down today it quite lovely rain seems like it washes the inequities of the world away well so it seems but it truly doesnt ive been doing alot of readin as of late ive been rereading some of the works by shopenhauer amazing man....my bible teacher he states few mwn die atheist but even if they renounce atheism they dont accept theism so whats the difference i mean honestly believing in a diety is differnt than believing in the christ god or allah or what not so in all actuality they dont truly reonounce their beliefs they just redirect them....
"I walked the road from Tuscon to San Atonio the smell of blood on my breath"