This women

Will not vacate my feeble mind i try and try but alas to no avail i think i have fallen hard and fast (fret not this isnt love) just idk ha!! but its on my mind and i dont want to be over anxious but i sont want to blow her off so yeah.....
"Ill take my pardon on the run"

Ive just seen a face...

well this weekend was quite nice indeed my parents were out of the town but i kept all behaved...but the point of this post is to state the fact that i met this lovely girl and im quite interested in her not in a fly by night two weeks sirt of deal like the others i actually care she fits for some reason or another cant really place it to well...but yeah but i hope all works out for the best anyways....I wont let this one end up on my list of regrets...
"desperate time call for desperate men, im just a kid but ill pretend"

The past is behind us...

i apologize for the long absense since know i have numerous readers who come and dwell upon this blog....ive decided i dislike that word anyways...my life seems more and more tedious and the monatany of it all is just burdonesome...i find myself wandering the open plains of my mind more and more i feel like i crave love but at the same despise it with a vast amount of my being indeed that seems to be the case..which can at times be humorous indeed...well till next time...
"I will destroy everything of beauty"

The restless and wearied...

Come ye haggard soldiers, rest in the arms of fate
for you fought against the foe, that stood upon that throne
now you lay weary battered broken and maimed
and some walk now upon that great plane
for the cause must be righteous for you to fight
and to give it now your earthly life, for what lies beyond you do not know
except for toil this earth, perhaps the sleep of final rest
will clear away the weariness, the horrors that we seen and dealt as well,
for there is no god no justice in this battle and strife
you stand ever silent and stoic amongst the many who witness not what you have scene
upon this earth so green
the sorrow robbed of youth so soon, llike a blossom without its bloom
your toils greater than you alone thats why you fight that man upon the throne
which until your laid to rest amongst the great tomes,
you struggle on beneath the autumn moon.

my bible teacher...

is so ignorant i cant even fathom it......and another thought maybe we all pretend to be so deep to hide how shallow we really are

Hmmmm.....

life seems dull at the moment im not to sure what i want from it, and on that thought im not to sure what i want from my next relationship whenever that happens anyways, it between distant relationship bordering casual sex, or do i really want someone who will come and watch me play rugby on the weekend and who can sit and just smoke at starbucks for hours on end, anyways dont think this is a pressing matter anyways just a random thought a future plan for a fruitless endeavor ha...some say failing to plan is planning to fail..what if you were going to fail anyways who now how can we answer the one who plans and then fails, Looks lke your just shit out of luck....
"heres to life"

So today...

ive been intoxicated since eleven in the morning its been wonderful to say the least...the world is a brghter place when im not sober.....kinda ha....well this certain women been on my quite a bit even though i havent talked to her in ages and i know that nothing shall come of it but alas oh well..there are plenty of others well sorta im rather particular ha...oh well...god i love whiskey
the sun is setting as the day comes to a close....the clouds are so free upon that easle in the sky oh how i long to be free and float ever changing m y form break these chains that bind us and drift up into the sky...
"I see three men hanging on a sycamore"